Follow up to 'Sad'

So the last paragraph is what I want to focus on from my last post.  If the information you have been given from someone 'close' to you seems like it should be shared for whatever reason, I would think the first reaction would be to get permission.  Is this not normal?  If I was asked to keep certain information away from specific persons, yet I felt those specific persons would want to know or my confidant would benefit from those specific persons knowing, then my first reaction would be to talk to the person who shared the information with me and asked me to keep their trust.  If, when talking to them I was still asked to not share the information, then I would urge them to tell those specific persons, reasoning that it would benefit all parties involved.  THIS IS WHAT NORMAL PEOPLE DO!

My gut reaction right now is to close myself off.  I have had a few too many negative experiences sharing my life with certain people and I am tired.  I'm tired of being criticized and treated like I can't make my own decisions.  It's time to limit my life to who I know are my real friends.  Thanks to those who tempt me into looking at family relationships with cynics eyes and a cynics heart.

Saddening

      It's been awhile since I last wrote on here.  One big reason is because I got rid of the internet connection in my house.  Sarah has her smart phone, but I have to go somewhere to have a connection and it's usually not for blogging.  Many things are happening in our lives and I'm not sure I want to talk about any of them.  Something happened over the summer that allows me to make a decision to 'let go' of the negative actions against me or to make a certain decision to not trust certain people anymore with much of what goes on in my life.  If someone entrusted me with information, then found out I couldn't be trusted I would not have the greatest of feelings of myself.  It was a simple enough of a task, yet, the end result was indeed not something I wanted.  It's sad, really.  I am one that needs to include others in certain circles for it helps me wade through this life and all that gets thrown at me.  I don't consider it necessarily something I do for shock effect.  I may have done that in the past, but I quickly realized making big decisions doesn't equate to basing those decisions off of how others will react.
      Anyhow, I just wanted to write down some initial thoughts on it and put it out there for almost nobody to read.  Trust is a big thing in relationships.  It doesn't matter what the circumstances are, maintaining trust is important.  If you have a problem keeping your confidence, talk to the person you are maintaining it for, don't go running your diarrhea mouth to others.